me @ 25…

25 na ako. Totoo ba ito? Di ako makapaniwala. Dati pag 25, matanda na sa paningin ko. Totoo. Feeling ko sila yung mga marami ng naachieve sa buhay. Marami ng naipon, may sariling bahay, may kotse, may business, pwede ng mag-asawa. Kaya di ako makapaniwala na 25 na ako. I stopped counting at 20. Hahaha!

Ano na nga ba ang naachieve ko? Wala akong ipon. Walang bahay, kotse o business. Pero may asawa at anak. Kung titignan ko yun standards ko on being 25, parang wala akong naachieve. Pero hindi. Feeling ko I've done so much. Hindi lang pala material things ang mahalaga. I mean, oo, wala ako nung mga yun. Pero masaya pa din ako. Una, may anak ako na bibo. As in! Maya't maya kumakanta. Pag nakarinig ng dance music, hala! Walang pakialaman at sasayaw siya (sabi nga nila, ikaw na ang maging anak ni Jona.. imposibleng di ka mahilig sumayaw.Ü). Hindi nahihiyang makipag-usap sa mga tao. Marunong mang-asar. Maraming tanong. Yun nga lang, takot sa mascot. Hahaha! Pangalawa, mabait ang asawa ko. Yes, we have petty quarrels. But we're still together. We've already been married for 4 1/2 years now. We've had so many trials but hey, we still have each other. Then, hindi ako pinababayaan ng family ko. Masasabi ko na hindi talaga nila ako iniwan through tough times. Swerte ako at napakasupportive nila sa akin.

Ano pa ba ang nakakapagpasaya sa akin? Simpleng tao lang kasi ako sa totoo lang. Gusto ko laging masaya. I mean ayoko ng tahimik lang. Gusto ko daldal ako ng daldal! Pwera na lang kung inaantok talaga ako. Hahaha! Saka ok na ok sa akin pag masaya ang usapan, yung tipong tawa lang kayo ng tawa. Parang walang problema. Gusto ko ring kain ng kain. Tinanong nga ako minsan ng officemate ko dito sa IBM kung ilang beses ba ako kumakain sa isang araw. Kasi pagdating sa umaga, kumakain ako, then sa lunch, tapos sa hapon, kumakain pa din ako. Kaya eto, maliliit na ang mga damit ko. Di na ako pwede sa small. Hehe.. Marami pa akong gusto. Small things. Di ko na lang babanggitin kasi medyo madami.

Basta masasabi ko na masaya ako ngayong bday ko. God has really been good to me and my family. Ang daming blessings na binigay Niya samin. I really am thankful to Him. He knows how and when to give the things that you need at the right time, at His time.

Before I end, salamat nga pala sa mga friendships ko na nakaalala at bumati. God bless you all.Ü

Nostalgia

Yesterday morning, I was so happy chatting with my friends back home. Gossiping, sharing ideas, talking about anything under the sun. Then suddenly, in the afternoon, I felt something wrong. I felt so sad. I felt so down. I started to think why. But I myself can't explain. What started as a happy day is now getting ruined. I thought deeply. Then I found the answer to my question. It was Oct 4. A year ago. It all started that day. When I had the biggest problem I could have ever imagined. I don't want to be a 'killjoy' here but I cant share the story. That story is not for the whole world to know.

I felt a sudden pain. The pain was not as much as before but Im surprised that Im still aching somehow. I thought everything was over and forgotten. Im wrong. Still feeling painful after a year is not right. I know I should've moved on. I tried my best. I thought I already moved on. But why am I feeling this way. I don't know. That nightmare still haunts me. I don't want this to happen but what can I do? I thought feelings can be controlled. I really can't explain how and why I suddenly felt that way when in fact I'm not even thinking of it.

Ahh! Too much for this. I have to move on with my life now. I have to get rid of this habit of thinking and living in yesterday. Whatever had happened before should all be closed door now. God had given me so much blessings after that incident. I should be thankful that everything's ok now instead of being haunted by the past. Time to move on. Time to let go.

Before I end, I must say that I now believe in the saying that it is easy to forgive but so hard to forget.

Welcome back…

It's been exactly two months since my last post. Quite some time. Makes me think that I've already been here in Kuala Lumpur for almost 2 months already. Wah! Antagal ko na din palang hindi kasama ang anak ko. Oo, para sa kinabukasan, panandalian kaming lumayo ng aking asawa sa piling ng aming pinakamamahal na anak (*nalungkot naman akong bigla*).

Anyway, eto ako ngayon. Nasa kalagitnaan ng unit testing, sa pagdedebug ng codes ko, sa paulit-ulit na pagcocompile at link. Pero bigla kong naisip ang isang natatanging kaibigan. Si BLEUE. Wala lang. Naisip ko lang. Hahaha! Naisip kong basahin ang blog niya. Putek! Isa nga siyang blogger. Aba't ilang page din ang binasa ko bago ko muling nabasa ang post na ginawa niya para sakin.

At dahil dun ay nalungkot ako. Hindi dahil sa namiss ko siya (hahaha!). Kasi ang dami kong kuwento pero napakatamad kong magpost! Sa loob ng halos 2 buwan na andito ako, marami akong naipon na kuwento. Napakarami talaga, as in! Karamihan sa kanila ay mga Anaps Adventures ko. Hahaha! (Ikukuwento ko yan isa-isa pag nasa UAT na tong project namin.) Nainggit ako kaya eto, sa gitna ng pagtetest ko, na-inspire akong magpost uli.

Ano nga bang topic nitong post ko? Wala. Gusto ko lang batiin ang sarili ko na makakapagpost ako uli. Hahaha! Walang kuwenta . Pangatlong post ko na to.. at aaminin ko.. pati ako ay hindi naa-amaze sa mga pinagsusulat ko. Yun tipong wala lang magawa. Wala lang masabi. Hahaha! (Pramis, next post ko, may mapapala na kayo.. =p)

Boredom…

It's almost a week since I resigned from my current job. I thought I would be leaving for Malaysia last weekend. Then I found out later that I still had so many things to process. Had I known, I shouldn't have resigned yet. I should have used all the leaves I have. Hahaha!

It was kinda boring now. I was ready to go then all of a sudden, my momentum was broken. One friend asked me when I'm really going to leave because he has said so many goodbyes and yet, I'm still here. Until now, there's no definite departure date..  Hopefully it will be soon. 'Coz it will only be a waste of time doing nothing here. =)

Eow!

This is cool! My own blogsite! At Last!

I was inspired when one of my closest friends introduced his blogsite to me. I was touched by the kind of friendship he has given me especially the post he created just for me. Thanks pare!

I just hope I'll be able to post a thing or two every once in a while.. =)