Nostalgia

Yesterday morning, I was so happy chatting with my friends back home. Gossiping, sharing ideas, talking about anything under the sun. Then suddenly, in the afternoon, I felt something wrong. I felt so sad. I felt so down. I started to think why. But I myself can't explain. What started as a happy day is now getting ruined. I thought deeply. Then I found the answer to my question. It was Oct 4. A year ago. It all started that day. When I had the biggest problem I could have ever imagined. I don't want to be a 'killjoy' here but I cant share the story. That story is not for the whole world to know.

I felt a sudden pain. The pain was not as much as before but Im surprised that Im still aching somehow. I thought everything was over and forgotten. Im wrong. Still feeling painful after a year is not right. I know I should've moved on. I tried my best. I thought I already moved on. But why am I feeling this way. I don't know. That nightmare still haunts me. I don't want this to happen but what can I do? I thought feelings can be controlled. I really can't explain how and why I suddenly felt that way when in fact I'm not even thinking of it.

Ahh! Too much for this. I have to move on with my life now. I have to get rid of this habit of thinking and living in yesterday. Whatever had happened before should all be closed door now. God had given me so much blessings after that incident. I should be thankful that everything's ok now instead of being haunted by the past. Time to move on. Time to let go.

Before I end, I must say that I now believe in the saying that it is easy to forgive but so hard to forget.